When I was very young, my solo playtime was very entertaining. I never felt alone. I could feel something was always with me. I even had an imaginary friend named Gobo who I used to talk with all the time. I could always feel him near me especially when I felt scared or lonely. He made me feel, safe, loved, and protected. I never saw him, only felt and sometimes heard him. I was completely content with that until one day I asked him why I couldn’t see him. He told me that it was because I hadn’t asked to see him and also that I wasn’t ready. “I immediately said I want to see you!” Again I got the answer that I wasn’t ready to see him. The pure excitement of having a friend to play with when ever I wanted pushed me to demand that I surely was ready! He said “Alright” if your sure.” “Yes!” I said!….. but nothing happened. In fact over the next few days Gobo seemed to vanish. I couldn’t feel him anymore. It was lonely those few days and I remember asking my mother why my imaginary friend went away to which she pragmatically replied “Honey, he’s not real. He is make believe!” I was disheartened by her explanation. I started to wonder if what my mother said was true and after another day or two of no Gobo, I started to believe that he really was just make believe.
Then one night, while sleeping I was suddenly snapped awake! I looked up and floating over my bed was a large, purple head with the face of an older gentleman who kind of looked like George Washington. Our first president’s etherial doppelgänger was looking down on me with a loving face and smiled at me. Now, I don’t know how you would have behaved but as a six year old seeing his first spiritual entity, I was downright terrified! I screamed for my mom and by the time she had gotten to my bedroom, the purple mass was gone. I kept saying “I saw a ghost!” I saw a ghost!” She assured me that I was imagining it all but I was sure it would return so I begged her to not leave! My awesome mom stayed with me until I calmed down and tried to convince me it was just a dream but I was a very self aware little boy. I knew what I saw.
The next day my mom went out and bought me a night light and over the next few weeks I would not go to sleep without it on. I went to bed every night terrified that I would be visited by that smiling, floating head. I was never again visited by George which was ok by me but I also didn’t feel or hear from Gobo either. I was sad and scared and confused at the same time. I didn’t know what had happened to my imaginary friend and I hadn’t a clue that his departure might have been connected with my spiritual visit. My mom’s solution to the problem was to let me watch horror movies like The Exorcist and Fright Night in some awkward but loving attempt to get me to see that what I thought I saw was all make believe. The Stuff of the movies. These gems of horror only frightened me more and effectively obliterated my visual connection to the ether. That is until last week when I attended my first Mediumship Workshop in NYC.
Recently, my Spirit Guides, who now function much in the same way Gobo once did, have been pointing me towards Mediumship. They have been steadily grooming me for communication with the deceased. I was giving homework to a coaching client and visited Meetup.com to assign an activity for him to join. After we signed him up and finished our session I felt moved to research the paranormal groups available in my area. It was here found a medium workshop happening later that week and signed myself up. Hey! if its good for my clients! its good for me too! 😉 And it was! There I got the chance to validate my mediumship abilities and actually read for an entire room, John Edward style! The spirits I was communicating with I feel were more connected to the building or room we were in rather than the people in the session but I later got a chance to read for a group member privately and connected with his father.
My sitter’s dad was a tall, handsome man, impeccably dressed. A real heart throb in his lifetime. My sitter and I talked with his dad for a while who told us many things about his life, including some of the more racy details he son didn’t need to know about him. I got a lesson that day in what information to share with clients especially when they come from an area that was kept privet from them. This particular spirit was a bit of a show off though. I think he just wanted me to see just how much a stud he was 😉 My sitter identified his father and confirmed all the information his father was sharing and they had a nice little chat. My sitter took away some valuable information that helped to put him at ease with his current choices in life. It was so great to see him leave so happy!
So now I knew I could see and speak with the deceased clairvoyantly but I still could not fully see them corporally. When I started my Intuitive Counseling business I had asked my guides to accelerate my studies so that I could help my clients, and they had responded! It was then that I made the connection with my guides, my childhood playtime with Gobo and George’s bedside visit. Back then, Gobo had done as I asked. While I do not think that the floating spirit was Gobo, corporeal, Gobo had responded to my request as one of my guides. I asked to see spirit, and so I did. And he was right. I was not ready for it and it had a severe effect on my spiritual growth. But now that I have asked my guides for more responsibility and let them know I am ready to handle more, they have helped to reactivate another of my psychic muscles. Theses muscles got even stronger a few days later when I went to my first seance.
The day before the seance I kept asking my guides again and again to allow me to see spirit. I assured them I was ready and they responded in kind. The seance was a surreal experience. Not only did I get a chance to read for a room a second time, this time with accurate and very personal results for specific sitters but I saw my first spirits in almost 26 years. I saw a woman and a man standing behind a couple and and a little girl with ribbon in her hair, a face in the corner of the room and an amorphous blob that was guarding the door. I was super excited and fascinated at the same time! They weren’t as scary as my experience from all those years ago and they looked nothing like the gory high tech Hollywood effects from Fright Night. Most were actually quite pleasant.
These past few weeks have been an amazing time for me. My skills are advancing at an accelerated pace and this time I am ready! My connection with the divine has given me a gift by helping me to lift the fear that was injected into that little boy all those years ago. They have allowed me to tap into another part of myself that helps me to connect with and help my clients in new and better ways. I can’t tell you how wonderful it feels to watch someone talk with their deceased family and friends and say what needs to be said. I feel honored and privileged to be of service to each of you that I have read for and I am constantly inspired by the amount of love and understanding that you share for your deceased relatives and for each other. It is these kinds of connections that help the healing process to continue and create solid insights into who we are as living beings and proof that there is no end to life or love.
So some 26 years after my first spirit sighting, I have finally managed my own Spiritual Learning Curve. I have learned how to listen to my guides and have discovered how to use them effectively. I have since tried to connect with Gobo and was greeted with an immediate “hello!” He is no longer my guide (he works mostly with children) but he is happy that I understand his lesson. I have yet to try to connect with George but I am going to take a moment to breathe before I open that door. In the meantime I am excited for this opportunity to give readings almost everyday and to have coaching clients who are lucid and ready to start living their purpose. It is through these experiences that I have learned that what I need is already part of me. I have all the support and the tools handy to create the life that I want. I only need ask and I will receive.
Now I am Ready. <3